I've had this annoying cough for about two weeks now. This isn't anything new; I once had a cough that lasted four months (it went away when I resigned from work, more on this later) but right now it's at that intensity where I can't enjoy myself when I'm out. Hence the post from my bed on a Friday evening.
Like I said, this sickness isn't new. I think I had something similar last year and the year before that and the year before that, each lasting several weeks. Every time I get checked out the doctors never find anything, which tells me the problem isn't fully physical, or at least, obvious. My mom always thinks it's stress. That's probably true, but it doesn't explain the times when I'm obviously stressed out but the coughing isn't there. So this is what I think it is: it's when stress becomes turmoil, and it doesn't get out so it turns itself into this annoying thing in my upper respiratory tract.
That sounded overly dramatic. But if you've read me before then that shouldn't be surprising, should it?
So for the next few days, months, years, I will figuring out what that turmoil is and will be writing it down here - somehow I feel that the internet is always listening even when no one else is - and I get better. (I admit there will be times when I already know what that is and will be writing in circles trying to avoid saying it straight...Hopefully it will be so entertaining that no one will notice. Hahaha.)
I literally need to get this thing off my chest.
at some point, it's all plan B